14 years of a terrible relationship trying to make things work. I have a beautiful son from our partnership, I have been out of it for two years no contact for one year due to AVO being taken out from his harassment over child support. I have much to be grateful for I have great work, a nice home and friends but….. I see him today waiting outside his girlfriends work and think why did I let him treat me like that, he seems happy with her but I can’t even think about anything else but his abuse, will he it be different with her, they have been together 2 years after I caught him cheating but of course he denied it. I am grateful that he found her as quite possibly we would still be living miserably together – he would never have left. It seems like yesterday. I’ve had counselling but the anger I have still gnaws at me – am I too impatient -I hate to give my power away to thinking about this I feel so damaged. I try to keep busy, I’m studying to complete a degree I started 10 years back but didn’t finish as I was so emotionally tired. Have others felt this 2? My healing seems to go forward then back again.