Hello, I have come to this website for healing. My abusive ex has done so for ten years. He has physically, psychologically, mentally, financially and emotionally abused me. He apologizes and I always take him back. I do well when we are apart but when he comes back, I slowly start disappearing and after awhile he ends up doing the same thing over and over again. I say to myself, “Why me? ” when he is in the throes of screaming uncontrollably which usually ends with a slap or his fists but I know he can only do what I allow. After 6 years I finally got the courage to put him in jail for about a year and I took him back, thinking it had changed him. He was just waiting to pounce and rage with more abuse. He screamed, “YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULD BREAK ME!! YOU THOUGHT I WOULD FORGET!! More abuse. Still I take him back. Why do I keep taking him back and helping him financially? I went to domestic violence counseling. I know he will never change so why do I keep hoping that he will? Why?