There were times when his verbal abuse hurt more than the physical…things i shared with him about men in the past or a flaw in my character that I was trying to work on to be a better parent, daughter, friend, he would use against me as proof that I deserved to be abused. “See even your son cant stand you!” If my twenty three year old in college, would get upset about a poor monetary decision he was making about whether buying the latest electronic device or saving his money..we would have strong words!! My defense would be that he is twenty and he still needs to know I wont approve of poor decision making and because my son (who refused to come to my house because of him) and I disagreed..he would use that against me..see even your children dont want to be around you because you are so controlling!! Me!! Controlling!! The nerve!!! .I told him about past relationships…during our courting stage..and he used that against me all the time…”See no man will want you..no man ever has..i am here..i stay and put up with all your ugly ways…its a wonder I have to hit you to keep you in line!” Ugh what can I say…he was and I am sure still a Horrible horrible man…so glad I am starting to lose track of the days we were together…..it reminds me of what I am keeping track of….a useless and worthless love..that will never function the way it should…