HelloMay 9 came and went. I saw him there right outside the courtroom. He looked at me and I stayed right next to a police officer that was there to escort me. I was really afraid so I asked for the escort. I was so scared that I saw him for maybe half a second and looked away. I did not wanted to see him at all. My attorney talked to him and he agree to settle all this outside the court, but he asked for a reconciliation. Which I have no intention to consider.I am now with $4,800 dollars left and as soon as I pay this month’s mortgage payment it will go down to $3,751 meaning that with all other bills I will run out of money with in 2 months. That is my biggest concern right now and I’m not sure what to do. Emotionally, I feel that it will take time and more therapy to feel the freedom. I still feel under his control somehow. I know its all in my head but I am scare that somehow I end up back with him. I just know, I rather die than doing that.My children’s class promotions are coming up and they want both of us to be there. I don’t even know what to do about that, cause I do want to please my children. I can just gladly report that I haven’t been slapped around in almost 2 months. It feels great! Thank GOD!