On Thursday, I noticed a pattern that I had been falling into, my ‘one more chance’ (per say) that I wanted to give him was in reality the fifth chance.That is exactly what I am going through right now! And although i know talking bad about him is not going to make things better, it sure does make me feel better. I was abusive to him, but he too was very emotionally manipulating me the whole time. Everyone thinks he is such a saint which really pisses me off even more, they don’t know the crap I put up with, with him. And the fact that he has a crappy relationship with his mother also, should have tipped me off, he treats her so ugly says ugly things to her. He thinks it is a revolving door, and I expect he is going to come back here like he always does, and say everything is going to be ok. But it’s going to be as if nothing happened. He likes to sweep the problems under the carpet, and blame me for everything! He had a back and forth struggle inside himself of wanting to help his dad with work by going out of town, but instead of talking to me about it, he used this opportunity to go work out of town anyway, when he knew damn well i didn’t want him to go. He used that against me. and he left, he is now 5 states away working, and I am here unemployed, not doing anything and it’s driving me crazy. Suicidal thougths come to my mind, but I have children that need me and love me so that thought goes away as quickly as it enters.And my husband is the type of guy that when something like this is going on he just shrugs it off, get’s back up and starts over again. AS if nothing has happened. It’s like he is in denial or oblivious to anything that is happening. He tried to call me a couple of times after he left and we did speak but we also made a point to say we just need to end it and I have not heard from him since. I told him by the time he get’s back divorce papers will be here ready for him to sign.