TGI,Hi. I just noticed that I am so happy and bubbly and different usually when im not around my AH. when im with him I am so bummed out and quiet and sad. Can you say why you felt you acted differently in his presence as well? Just curious. The answer is unconciously almost plain to me why i act differently, but hearing it from someone elses experience helps solidify and clarify it even better.Thanks to everyone who shares. You all have really been helping me break out of my denial and am working toward life without his abuse.