They fade with time, but never completely disappear.Yesterday would have been our 5th Anniversary. And the first anniversary we’re apart. It also would have been the weekend of the provincial championships for her riding. I’m sure she’s there, and I’m sure she’s there with someone else (she was dating within 3 months of me leaving), but it doesn’t matter.I managed to get through yesterday without obsessing about her. Sometimes I had to forcibly push her from my mind, but I did it.I’ve also resisted the urge to check out the website to see how she’s done in the competition. And the urge to just “show up” at the show grounds, which could have easily been accomplished, because it’s part of my work. That was really hard, because I truly enjoyed the horses and horse shows, and I was so proud of her riding.Because it just doesn’t matter. She’s out of my life, by MY choice, and all the wishing, hoping and hurting will never change that. And she can’t hurt me any more.